Nothing is Everything..

Well the title of this article may seem odd to many but this revelation happens to each one of us. I may want to warn you right at the start that this state of nothingness may be both productive and counter productive.  Some people may enjoy this state to the utmost and may never want to leave it which then becomes a question to each and every average man's life.

Okay, to rest some raised eyebrows let me try and bring some context to what I mean when I say nothing is a state. Recently, I quit my high paying job as a banker to pursue my dream. I have a very supporting husband, 2 loving set of parents, friends and family. I had been upset with how my career had been shaping out, I felt I was losing control and that my work was not turning out the way I had pictured it in B School or in my dreams. All seems fair so far right? No! When I mention that I quit to pursue my dream, did I tell you my dream? Did I tell you that I haven’t really figured out what I want to do even after spending 27 years on earth in the most fortunate circumstances possible! Now, I have reached a state of nothingness, I have nothing going on… or so I imagine. Nothing as far as work is considered that used to take the good part of my 24 hours. I often sit down with a paper to jot down things I like to do and come up with an awesome list but when it comes to relate it to work, it seems unlikely that I become a dancer, artist, party organizer or a fashionista that makes similar sort of dough that I minted earlier. I am the happiest when I am left alone to dance or cook!

I haven’t still told you the something part. Well, have you ever imagined that when you embrace the fact that there is suddenly all this time in your hand that you can allocate to new stuff or things you always wanted to do, how would that feel? I feel soo awesome, I feel I am like superwoman again who can decide her own future, who can choose to either travel or start my own firm! I have the power to choose my own new job and also my life. I feel beautiful and am relooking at my body that I have been ignoring since the time I got married. I am giving more time to relationships.

My state of nothing has finally given me the time to introspect and rejuvenate. I will start to again challenge myself to achieve new heights, new goals, new hobbies. Its an exciting phase, I wish that each one of you also gets to be as lucky as I am. Each human being deserves to smile and slow down to reinvent and find their somethings….